I have a big voice. It's distinctive - you can't miss it. I've always been able to talk over most any noise... most anybody, too... I have a big voice.
But laryngitis has always been a big issue with me. Both physically and creatively.
I have things to say. Lots. At one point in my life, at a time when I didn't feel heard, I tried to hone it, or direct it in a way that didn't offend anyone - in a way I believed everyone would understand... I wanted for the whole world to find something valuable in my output. You can imagine my angst, my audacity, and my lack of creative voice during that period!
I struggle with artistic laryngitis. Often. I have something to say - something that needs... OUT! But, for the life of me I can't gather my voice to say it. It's like a big trumpet mute got shoved down my throat. It suddenly becomes close to impossible to express the right stuff in the way I hear it being expressed!
I suspect this is true of everyone sometimes. We all occasionally need an artistic lozenge to help us get back on track. And whether the laryngitis was caused from an external source - criticism, rejection, etc... or internal - fear of said criticism and rejection - is really unimportant at the core. The creative voice needs to return... as does the courage, sense of self, and the joy that connecting to Other with the artistic voice brings!
I truly hope that upon reading this, you will take a breath, gain courage and remember that you are the only one to say what needs to be said from you! That is crucial - to gather our universal artistic courage, suck on a lozenge, and express what is in our collective through our singularity.